change is goooood. very good.

So... update time! We found out on Monday that we will be moving to Amarillo. We FINALLY get to get out of Abilene, and I'm so happy about that. I honestly don't know if I could have handled another year in this place. There are too many memories and too many things that we just need to get away from. A fresh start is something we all need. Too many people know too much about us here and I've gotten so tired of people's attitudes toward us.

So obviously, when Grady got the call that he was being transferred, we were beyond overjoyed! I think I may have jumped up and down! :-) We'll all be a lot happier in a different place, and I already feel so relieved about everything. I hadn't been too happy about being here another year and that had reflected in my attitude toward everything.

Another blessing in Amarillo is that we'll be very close to Grady's mom, someone who I actually trust to watch Brendan. We can have a life sometimes now and that will be good for all of us. Grady has other family in the area as well, so we'll know a lot of people. Plus, it's way bigger than Abilene so there'll actually be stuff to do! And we'll be close to Albuquerque and Oklahoma City if we want to check those out. I'm excited about moving somewhere new. Sometimes you really just need a change of scenery to keep your sanity!

So my first Mother's Day was weird for me. It was extremely bittersweet, because it was the first one without Mom here. We were in Clarendon at Grady's mom's church and they sang this really old-timey song about telling Jesus to tell my mother I'll see her in Heaven, and of course that set me off crying. And I was in the middle of a bunch of people I'd met once before so it was rather awkward. But it was also my first Mother's Day as a mom, and that was amazing.

Being a mom really is indescribable if you haven't experienced it for yourself. I never thought I'd worry so much about someone until Brendan came along. And I never thought I'd love someone as much as I love him (and Grady!). I've been asked before if I regret how things happened. My answer is always no. One, I don't believe in regrets - life's too short to spend it wondering "if only." Two, the moment I saw Brendan's beautiful face for the first time, I knew I was where I wanted and needed to be. I've always heard people say that God just laughs when you try to make plans yourself. And I'm sure He laughed at me a lot over the years. I wouldn't change anything for the world, and I'm happier than I've ever been!!

That was a long post for me. Anyway, time to go meet the husband for dinner!